[In]decision

At some point in the last month I realized that I had no idea what I wanted to do when I was older. I had a medley of 'declared majors' over the past year before finally deciding I wanted to major in meteorology. I mean, I loved the movie Twister and watching The Weather Channel, and storms are my fav. So that was my logic behind that. 

As I was reading the prologue to Chapter 9 in finite, the text proclaimed that understanding Markov chains was imperative for predicting weather and an array of other fields. As it turns out, I wasn't able to complete that homework assignment. I was devastated... until I realized that I've never really liked math or science. I was instantly repulsed by the idea of taking 3 years of Calculus. 

Thus, I decided to be undecided.

But now I've decided that the thought of being undecided terrifies me. 

With orientation being this week, I took the initiative of browsing through all 180 majors at Ball State and narrowing down my options. Taking the lead are International Business, Human Resource Management, and Pre-Law. I realize that this probably isn't the best approach in deciding a career, or the most practical, but I have this strong, underlying compulsion to figure out exactly where my life is going. I know I haven't made a definitive career decision, but I feel comfortable with these choices. These fields are all pretty similar and I think I probably belong in one of them.

But I still want to chase tornadoes and stand in front of a green screen tracking cold fronts so God damn bad!