The DC trip is a week from tomorrow; I still don't have a definite answer. Apparently, the thought of my mom consenting makes her physically ill. She also doesn't think I'm responsible enough which blows my mind. I have two jobs, do my own laundry, and provide my own meals more often than not, which I think makes me pretty responsible. I honestly don't remember the last time my mom made a meal for me. 

Off subject: I wish my mom cooked for me more, and I wish that every once in a while my whole family, which is only 3 people, could cohere for one evening and enjoy a dinner together. I'm jealous of families with close bonds because I'm so distant from my dad. We are polar opposites. I wish I looked up to him. Rather, I could look up to him. 

Back to DC: It's disheartening that even though I'm forced to assume responsibility, I'm not entrusted with it. If she isn't comfortable with me going now, when will I be allowed to? I almost don't want to go anymore because I don't want this DC trip to double as a guilt trip. I shouldn't feel bad for wanting to lobby for Invisible Children, in my opinion at least. Maybe we need a third party to help negotiate. 

In other news, I don't think I picked the right major. aaah. I'm tempted to call and ask to change my schedule, but I don't know what I should change it to and would probably have to call back by the end of the summer and change it again next time I decide I'm on the wrong course. I took a career test today via some random website, it was actually more of a personality test than a career test, but the careers were based on 4 personality traits, and here are my career options:

program designer
attorney
administrator
office manager
chemical engineer
sales manager
logistics consultant
franchise owner
new business developer
personnel manager
investment banker
labor relations
management trainer
credit investigator
mortgage broker
corporate team trainer
environmental engineer
biomedical engineer
business consultant
educational consultant
personal financial planner
network integration...specialist
media planner/buyer

I think I should take a different test.